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(While I am ranting about some things, I shall insert some pictures for random visuals [and a little preview of my very cute disposables that I will post soon] with little captions!)

Hypocrisy. Such a strong, unappealing trait, but..it's everywhere. Freshman year, I learned how much of a hypocrite people can be, including me. I tried avoiding it..which I did, for the most part, but then I realized something..it's something everyone does and is, no matter how hard they try to deprive themselves from it. It can be above water or deep inside the ocean, where it's hidden, but sometimes it floats and you can't really stop it from happening. This sounds pretty cynical, and it is, but we have to realize these things, I think. You may not like to call yourself a hypocrite, which is everybody, I mean it's not the best thing you can call yourself, but I think it's good to be aware of it? Perhaps you can suppress it so maybe one day you won't cause hypocrisy at all, but it's tough. For example, people advocate for animal rights, stop the slaughtering and fight against caged animals!!!! BUT, then they go to their regular grocery store and buy a chicken that lived in a tight cage with hundreds of other chickens, being filled up with chemicals and can barely walk...I guess what I mean is that, it's hard to not be a hypocrite sometimes. Obviously, there are things that you can't prevent from happening or something, but y'know!!! Hypocrisy..what a terrible, but popular trait.

My sistaaah and I lookin' cute as evaaa on a rainy day!!!!

So, as most of have heard, there has been another shooting that involves racism and white privilege. It seems that it's getting worse and worse each day and it SUCKS. Cops are being thanked for their service while tackling innocent black people and white people are being saved from getting shot when they just killed an innocent life. Man, is the world messed up, but I would like to shine some positivity behind all of this. I think one of the reasons why more and more of this is appearing is because people are ACKNOWLEDGING what wrongs are occurring throughout the United States. More and more people are becoming activists and becoming AWARE of their surroundings and that's so cool! I mean, we still got a lot of work to do, clearly, BUT the more people that are becoming aware, the more help we have to change it all. Always try to become aware yourself and do your own research because it can make a difference, even if it's juuuuust an inch. Shitty things are happening, but those shitty things are being talked about, which means change is happening, inch by inch.

I thought this was very Twin Peaks/Audrey Horne-esque with my cutie, Luna!!!

One more thing. Since I am on summer vacation with no summer assignment, I have felt completely USELESS. I have NOTHING to do!!!!! I considered taking up a job, but I thought about it and I felt it may not be worth it because I only have less than 3 months left till I leave...it make sense it my head (and thinking about having a job gives me maaajor anxiety)!!! Yesterday, I cleaned out drawers because that was the only thing I thought was productive..CLEANING MY DRAWERS?!?!?! Man, I mean it's chill and all, but I HAVE NO PURPOSE!!! But it's whatevaaaa, I've just been watching a crap load of Netflix, killing brain cells, y'know the regular ahhahaha. ALSO, I am going die because of college money. The future is very stressful, especially when your life is basically just starting. It's definitely a mix between excitement and being completely terrified, which I have said alot, I know, bUT THAT'S HOW I CAN EXPLAIN IT!!!

Top is from GradNite and bottom is from Praaaaam. Disposables come out soooo cute, love 'em.

I haven't done a post like this in a while and it feels preeeeetty good, I definitely need to do more of these, instead of personal life ones, which are cool, too, but I feel like these are more..interesting?? Hahaha, thanks for reading!!! =^^=

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Longest. Weekend. Ever. Full of happiness, annoying moments, and realization. A whole bunch of family flew over  from Georgia to attend my sister's UCLA graduation. It was a huge event that I am glad is finally over, hahaha. I made a lot of the decorations so it was pretty stressful for me! Although, the feeling of having family around was absolutely worth it. I realized that I love my family, and not just my "house" family, but my cousins and aunts and uncles and everyone. It was sooo cool having everyone around!!! They are super different from me and are kinda weird, bUT beyond that, it was so fun having actual cousins around! I have two that are around the same age as me so it was different not having cousins that are below the age of 5! I was also able to meet a cousin that was born a couple of months ago and ah man guys, I wish I got to see him more often, cutest kid EVEEERR. I was actually very sad to see them all go..I do have more family that haven't left, so that's cool, but they'll be leaving soon and this season of family will be officially over and it sucks! Every time someone would say "family first" I alawys just thought of my siblings and parents, but this weekend made me realize that that phrase involves your cousins and aunts and uncles and everyone even if they are different and live far away. I know they'll always be here to support me and that's so cool!!! 

Here's a few pictures from this weekend:

I am so incredibly proud of my sister. She is the best sister I could ever ask for and I cannot thank her enough for everything she has done.

Yeah..basically my entire mom's side of the family went to her graduation, hahahahah. We were probably one of the loudest groups inside and it was pretty awesome. I love every single one of these humans so very much. (And if you can zoom in, you can see the pins I made for everyone to wear, I'm very happy I took the time to make them)

Especially this one.

We then went straight to the party and it was quiiittte a riot! Hahahah, there were tears, hugs, anxiety (for me), and much love.

This day was definitely memorable, for everyone I think. My sister is seriously my hero. She didn't do very well in high school, having to go to community college first, and then now..she has graduated from one of the best UCs in California. How amazing is that!?!?!?! There's inspiration everywhere, I get inspired by social media, friends, random people on the street, but my sister is definitely my number one inspiration. My brain is completely asleep right now because I have done NOTHING today so this post is quite short and I can't think of anything else to say except: always keep your family or friends, whoever make you happy, close because man they can be so great sometimes. Hope you all are having a grrreaaaat summah!!! =^^=

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It's finally summer and man I gotta make this one memorable. It's been pretty great so far, preparing for my sister's graduation party, going to an awesome concert, and starting to learn how to skate!!! Pretty proud of the past week, ever since I graduated. Well, this last Saturday I went on an adventure to the middle of "skidrow" in L.A. It's apparently (I barely learned this new word) the street where many homeless people are living. There's a numerous amount of tents and people sleeping in them. It's quite a sad sight really. I remember it killed most of people's vibes on prom night when we passed it, everyone realizing how tough it can be. It's really sad that people have to live in such a terrible way, perhaps it was their fault, perhaps it wasn't, but nobody should have to live like that..anyways, hahahaha, the concert was moved last minute to this barren warehouse, my mom was so close to not letting me go to the concert once she saw where it was. It was very dangerous and very sketchy, but I paid good money for it so I wasn't going to let it go!!!! She finally let us go and man oh man was it a memorable night...

It started off with us having to go into this weird building and the guy "checking our tickets" BARELY CHECKED THEM. They didn't even check our bags!!! I am now starting to think it wasn't very official...well, luckily there were many teenagers, but also college-like people. Many of them were smoking weed and cigarettes and I felt like I was going to die smelling it all. There was also LOTS of beer and drunk people and I am pretty positive I could've asked for a beer and they wouldn't check my I.D. I saw a lot of people who were holding beer cans that were definitely NOT 21 and over. Yeah..3 opening acts later and finally the band came out and it was WILD. I actually went into the mosh pit this time and it was GRRREAAAT!!!! It wasn't as bad as it was when I went to see The Orwells so I was pretty happy about that!! Definitely have to experience more mosh pits hahahhaa.

Of course there were people crowd surfing and I almost got kicked by one of them..rad right?!?!?!? Hahahahahha, BUT I did get punched in the face!!! I was scared that my glasses broke and I just noticed that they left a huge scratch on my poor lenses!!! So now my mom HAS to get me new glasses..thanks dude that punched me!

The band overall was super cool, I passed them a couple of times and it's just so weird from experiencing a, let's say, One Direction concert to THIS. I mean you pass the band members like they're part of the crowd, which is super weird because I am so not used to that? It's super cool to now enjoy shows like these because there aren't as many rude people, there isn't MEANINGFUL pushing, it's all just..well, FUN!!! 

The band was called Twin Peaks (no not named after the show) and I highly recommend you all look them up and listen to 'Making Breakfast,' you'll LOVE it!!! I am so excited to experience these kinds of concerts in San Francisco, it's just going to be too exciting. 

Going to these kinds of concerts kind of remind me that I am sort of growing up? I don't really care for One Direction anymore, I've stepped away from that realm and it's super weird? And scary. Aaaaaand terrifying. Aaaaaaaaaaand exciting all in one.

Look how cute we are!!! I got a brand new instax from my family for graduation anD I'M IN LOVE WITH IT!!!!!! 

One more thought: I've realized I'm not so independent after all. I try to be and I think I can be, I just gotta stop thinking so damn much. Lately, I have been noticing how much I think and how much of an asshole I can be. I try to stop myself, but sometimes I'm just too oblivious or stubborn. Things make me irritated and sometimes I think I have good reason, but other times..there's just no reason at all. I have been able to stop myself more often from getting mad easily and I guess getting rid of that unconscious dependent side, so I think that's a good first step. It just really sucks noticing it. I think way way waaaay too much and realizing it WHILE DOING IT, just makes it all worse..Any tips for that??? Man, my brain just puts in too much work when it could be relaxing I mean it's SUUUMMMMMEERRR, c'mon, Brain. =^^=