in my eyes

THOUGHT: Okay, here me out on this. Sleep is awesome, my favorite time of the day, BUT isn't it sooo annoying when you want to stay up till like 3, but you can't because you're already tired and it's only 12!?!?!? That's me right now. Over the summer my motto is "sleep is for the weak" because DUH  c'mon watching videos and shows and movies and blogging and doing DIYs is so fun!!!! There's not enough time for it all in a 24 hour day in my opinion. But when it comes to school, my motto is "SLEEP. I WANT, NO, I NEED SLEEP. ALL THE TIME. PLEASE. SLEEP. NAPS. HATE SCHOOL. GOODBYE WORLD. SLEEP." Because honestly school tires me out SO much. Anyways, that's my rant. Sleep is awesome when you have responsibilities, but when you don't it's just a drrraaagggg.

Here's some pictures of what I did on Christmas Day:

Clearly, my fashion sense goes off the charts when I'm trying to keep warm.

MUSIC: I've been listening to some "new" stuff lately so here they are!! I listened to Best Coast like in..middle school(?) because of my sister, but whenever she stopped listening to a band/artist, I would too because she'd be my source for music so that was what happened to Best Coast for me. I knew the basics, y'know Boyfriend, Our Deal, basically the 'Crazy For You' album, but nooowww I love their new album, California Nights. It's soooo gooooodddd!!! Honestly, all of their songs sound the same, but for some reason I really enjoy listening to them so!

The reason why I started listening to Best Coast again was because they're having a show with Wavves and Cherry Glazerr that I want to go to sooo bad, but haven't got the money for it. That's also the reason why I started listening to Wavves (more) and they are also such a great band. Their single "My Head Hurts" is such a jam, I have it on repeat all the time. I remember in my high school art class someone wrote "Wavves" on one of the desks and I thought it was cool, semi-knowing it was a band...don't know why I just told that irrelevant story..but yeah...Wavves are cool...ahhahaha. Also, one of the greatest finds of my Amoeba trips was a $1 Haxel Princess album by Cherry Glazerr and I was so excited when I found it!!!! There's this section in Amoeba that has CDs for $1-$3 and it's so awesome, but there's so much that it gets so tiring looking through all the stacks and hardly finding anything!!!! I once found The Shoe's album for $2 and that was my first great find so you just gotta give it some time and be patient to actually find some good shit in that section.

I've also been listening to Alex G because Girlpool sang "Brite Boy" with him at a show and it was beautiful. He's got some pretty chill songs so I've been really liking his stuff!!! 

OH. I also re-watched Across The Universe twice like a weekend ago and I forgot how much I loved that beautiful movie. Goddamn, if you haven't seen it please go watch it now. It's a story made out of tons of amazing The Beatles songs, it's so brilliant. So I've been listening to that soundtrack a lot, too and I cry every time I hear "All You Need Is Love" because in the movie they throw in a little "She Loves You Ya Ya" and it's sooooo frickin' BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! Speaking of The Beatles, Spotify FINALLY (!!!!) put all of their albums in and I couldn't be happier. Definitely going to be listening to them even more now.

OH MY GOSH ONE MORE THOUGHT. STAR WARS. STAR. WARS. I watched it yesterday and guys. GUYS!!! If you have been following my blog for a while now, you'd know I'm a huge fan of Star Wars and this episode just reminded me of how AAAMAAAZING the series is. It was so fucking cool watching it in an actual theatre instead of on TV. When "A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away" popped up in the screen, tears started flowing. And then "STAR WARS" popped up and then the Star Wars song and then the little story before the movie... GUUYYYSYSSS. It was awesome. From now on I will be saving up to buy the DVDs because clearly I am in need of them. If you have not watched Star Wars: The Force Awakens, I really recommend to go see it, BUT I also REAAALLLYYY recommend watching the episodes before it because it will be so much more fulfilling and so much more beautiful and awesome because you'll really know what everything is and what everyone is talking about and THE CHARACTERS!!!!!!!! I'm just so amazed at how good it was, so many tears. So many good scenes. SO MUCH VERY MORE HAPPY.

Here's an outfit of the day that includes stripes AND polka dots AND checkers because I'm THAT awesome hahahahaha: 

// top - thrifted // pants - thrifted // socks - old navy // shoes - vans // (Yes, I have worn these for the past two outfit posts, but they're new and I just want to wear them all the time *shrugs*.)

Enough of that. I hope you all are having fun with your families, enjoying holidays and the (upcoming) new year!!! I will be blogging about 2015 so I shall talk more about how fast the year went and what went on and blah blah. For those who celebrate Christmas, I hope you got some fun gifts and good food!!! My family got me an Amoeba certificate so I am SOOOO excited to be buying vinyls and stuff with it. Hope you all had/are having a fantastic Monday!!!

all I want for christmas is...CONSUMERISM!!!

Holidays scare me...I know. Whaaatttt?? I mean c'mon, everybody is hustling around to different stores (and some people actually get hurt by this) trying to find gifts for their loved ones in order to show them how much they love each other? Spending all this money and time to prove how much they care about each other...with consumerism?!?!?!? WHAT HAS THE WORLD COME TO!!! I know, being a bit dramatic. I totally get it all, the spirit of holidays is fun and cool and the lights and Christmas trees and chocolates and pretty wrapping paper and so on and so on is all awesome, but....is it? Are we just doing what companies want us to do? (YES.) Are we just being brainwashed? (BASICALLY.) Do we realize? (PROBABLY.) But do we stop it? (NOPE.) So...my point is...do we humans want to stop this capitalist brainwashing? We all know these holidays are just a way for these corrupted ass corporations to get MORE money and become ever bigger than they are. Obviously the idea of spending time with family and eating good food and snugglin' up with our blankets is nice, but in reality..are we just trying to hide away from the fact that MONEY is TAKING OVER?!?!?!? DO MOST OF US EVEN CARE?!?!?! Something to think about...

Here's a little photo set about this:

I know this may be too cynical for some of y'all at this time of year, but it's good to be reminded!! If I don't post before Christmas, I hope you all have so much fun with loved ones and food and everything around you. Remember it's not all about presents and stuff, it's about being surrounded by jooooyyyy!!!! =^^=

change of heart

Is it just me or is it super difficult to write about yourself? I guess I just have so many thoughts going through my head that I want to put down but don't know how and in what order. For one of my finals, I have to write about my family origin and it's a huge spectrum, I don't know how I want to tell my story!!! I've been sitting here all day, unable to put my thoughts into words. It's annoying. I've just been jamming to Deerhunter, Justin Bieber, and Wavves all day while watching That 70s Show and youtube videos every once in a while. I wish I could sleep all day, but I just have to get through this paper and then I'm done with my first semester of college. JUST LIKE THAT!!! I feel like it's been longer, but it's only been a semester, crazy. Hopefully this winter break I will be crafting and blogging more and selling my clothes on depop. I'm hoping it works out because I really need the money, hahaha. I'll let you guys know when it's all up with stuff and maybe you'll find something!! I have so much clothes that I need to get rid of so let's hope it all goes well. I'm actually leaving home pretty late, this Sunday, even though I could've went home Tuesday, but oh well. Home isn't going to be very exciting because that small town barely has anything to do. Hopefully I'll get my license and hang with friends and stuff.
---> Response to this because, like always, I neglected this post. I am currently at home, just laying on my bed. First semester of college = DONE! Crazy. I ended up writing about my anxiety and family issues for my essay, which I hope I did well on...Anyways, my depop is yakogirlz (sort of a long story with friends) and I've only put a few stuff up if ya wanna have a look! Just things I don't wear anywhere and they're in pretty good condition! So winter break. Here's my list that I hope I get to do over the FIVE WEEKS I am here:

• make pom pom earrings
• craft anything
• get an acai bowl
• sell all of my clothes
• blog way more
• take pictures everyday
• talk to brother everyday
• hang out with friends
• get ears pierced
• get nose pierced

That's all I have so far, but I think I'll add more later. 

Also, I went to Amoeba today and bought the album that explained high school for me...Come of Age - The Vaccines. Ugh. UGh. UGH!!!! SO GOOD!!! Most of this album reminds me so much of my mentality in high school, it's so cool. I don't like thinking back at that time, but this album makes me think of how much I've grown and how much less cynical I am (still cynical though..aren't we all???). You've gotta listen to this. I got it on vinyl and am so excited to hear it, although I have to wait five weeks because I left it back in SF :-))) I couldn't bring it because too much of a hassle, so so SO sad. But seriously I love The Vaccines, they have not disappointed me in any of their albums.

To end this little update, here's some pictures I took before I left SF.

Okay. If you ever visit SF please look around the neighborhoods and admire the beautiful houses and nature. That is definitely one thing I would recommend because these streets are filled with beauty.

 Friends being weirdos.

 Friends on the bus.

 5/6 of SF family being a bit awkward because we were fighting about taking a picture.

Outfit of the night: jacket that I always wear - thrifted // rose choker - DIY // Deathly Hallows necklace - found // shirt - FIDLAR concert // skirt - thrifted // tights - old // shoes - Vans // Snape button - Whimsic Alley // Perfect Attendance button - given to // grandma button - found at FIDLAR concert // (been trying to wear more jewelry)

This loser didn't want to take a picture with the creepy monkey so we took one with it in the background instead..smh. Union Square during the holiday season is craaazzzyyyy.

Well, there's a bit of an update and stuff. I will talk to you guys soon =^^=

nobody wants to hear how to live their life

Here's a little insight on the details of where I live and who some of my people are...